My first Crush

In the life when we just stop and look back we will think that we have missed a lot and also equally gained a lot.We tend to forget lot of things but not the first things that occured in our life .whenever we are about to start something new and not sure about that don't be hesitant as someone rightly said there is always a first time for everything . Well the word "first" itself firstly a magical term which make you happy,thrilling sometimes nervous and many times exciting . We all usually remember our first cycle/bike/car ride, the first date , first love(??),our first day in college, first day in the work,first day on stage, first kiss,first blog ;-),first mobile,first month salary etc etc.., oh and of-course how can i miss the title .. the first crush ..
Eventhough all the first are best remembered i can't think of the first time i met her.Probably it must have been at very earlier stage of my life which dates back to those days when my mom used to carry me and was feeding with the grinded food . i somehow remember that it must be some time in the night when my mom took me to the top floor of my house (rather first and last floor) to feed me , i must have seen her, From that time on i usually notice her staring at me ,smiling at me and giggling at me.At times when she was aware that i am staring at her,she hid her face in the curtains of her window .When she was shy she looks more beautiful:-).The feeling make wonderful and i was not aware of the reason.
She is bright,cute,romantic and always smiling and i usually see her daily through my window and in those days when i can't see her , i felt very bad and dark. Many times in the night i reach my roof and sleep their seeing her beauty through her windows . I tried to say a lot to her but never know whether she understood that or not . I was not aware that she was my crush untill i came to the adoloscent age . I then learnt that many others are also in love with her and when it happened to read a lyrics about her in a local weekly magazine i was stunned to know that half of the poets i have known are in love with her , They described her beauty and still she is uncomplete by words , and she probed me to write my first lyrics .. In my college life i came across many girls but none were as smart as she .The thought of her make me feel peace,happy , and an untold experience i can feel in my heart .
It was in the college days i totally forget about her and together with the friends i had very little time to think about her .I had very less chance to meet her and then when i was in the work i missed all my friends and then i realised that still there is one person who is very near to my heart is also very near to my place . still she is there to take care,to listen to me whatever i say and she is there forever for me ..she is so far from me still she is so close that i can see her almost everyday .oh i forget to say her name She is the 'nila'- 'the moon' the ultimate beauty of my life and also in anyone's life . But Guys remember she is my girl :-)..